Tonight’s Ayurvedic concoction: 12 in 1 Turmeric mix (Ginger, Turmeric, Moringa, Ashitaba, Guyabano, Sambong, Pandan, Lemon Grass, Serpintena, Oregano, Banaba, Lagundi) + Whole Milk = Golden Milk. 🤗

Sooo good! Here’s to wishing this will help improve my overall health (of course, with a nightly regimen.)

In other news, I’ve been researching everyday for the past week on how I can improve my productivity. The Paradox of Depression in my previous medication was that it arrested my cognitive abilities so much so that I felt so inutile therefore adding to my depression and feeling of hopelessness. With low-dose Quetiapine, I feel much more accomplished everyday that it gives me more dopamine. Since I took matters into my own hands and made a conscious and purposeful effort to 1.) eliminate negative energy in my life whether in the form of people, places, things, or situations and 2.) carefully choose what to add back, focusing only on the essentials that give the maximum benefit, there was a newfound discipline in what I do, and in what I spend on. Having this illness washed out everything from me temporarily — my ego, cognitive abilities, ability to feel, unnecessary associations, my memory — that it forced me to really pick myself up, but made me more critical of which parts.

The coming year will be trying, as I incorporate myself back into the workforce, and hopefully consistently at that. I am as excited as I am wary, being more diligent and aware of the steps that I make and the situation I find myself in. I claim this year to be the year of my rebirth.

Now, if only I can find a way to reduce my sleep from 10 hours to 8…